http://www.epm.org/blog/2011/Dec/9/saying-goodbye-moses

This brings tears to my eyes just sharing this. In the article above, so many thoughts run through my mind that can be similar when losing a spouse.  It's hard to let go of anything, or anybody.  I have two, Cocker Spaniels that are litter mates, both being 11 years old, and both have recently been diagnosised with Cushings Disease.  I will be faced with this sooner than I want to.  Loss just seems to be a part of life for me lately.

As my therapist shared with me this morning, "You never "get over" losing someone you love, most especially a spouse." 

Because Mike and I had such a deep, long, love story; my heart has been broken in a million pieces, and over the past two years (which may sound like enough time to some),  I've been trying to sweep up as many pieces of what's left of it, to pick up and go on.  For some it may have been an easier process, but for me that hasn't been the case.  If it doesn't look like I've made any progress, I'm light years away from where I was a year ago.

My faith in Jesus Christ, and the promise of Heaven, and being joined again with Mike, is what keeps me fighting to go on (as lousy as that must look like right now.)  Once I'm there, there will be NO MORE separation, no more tear stained pillows.  My heart will be whole again. 

And just maybe...... Scotchy, Noah, Chloe, and Hailey, will be there with us.  That's enough hope to make me smile.